Today started off okay but quickly went down hill! I have issues with knowing what date it is and headed off to a meeting first thing without double checking. Getting to the venue to be told there wasn’t a meeting, I then got a panicked phone call about the wrong trainers… so I rushed back home to make sure the wrong shoes didn’t mean a work experience day was cancelled.
I got myself into a bit of a state to be honest and although seeing my own black trainers heading off to a day in town should have made me realise it was all going to be okay, my inbox about the meeting beckoned and I sent off an email before I left… which of course set off a trail of emails when I got back which left me questioning my capabilities. Not helped by a news alert discussing the prevalence of early onset Alzheimer’s.
Cue the floodgates! I am meant to be keeping a record of my feelings to see if I am depressed; well today put me in the highest anxiety category! Life post pandemic is not being kind to me and despite picking up some more veg seedlings today I am unsure that I have the energy to do all in the next day or so as I am meant to be working. We don’t get paid for ill health anymore so I cannot have time off. I didn’t get paid for getting Covid, ironic really given my job. Add that to the things getting me down!
It will be better now. I’ve been out and snapped garden loveliness!