Truth: I am stuck between rather a lot of hard places. For one I wish I had the money to just do it whatever the latest ‘do it’ calls for.

I have stresses in all different directions which are too personal to list in a public blog but I’m sure I am not alone because I’ve seen comments online which mirror my angst.

Angst is calling out in every different corner and it’s giving me a headache, or is it? I’ve started new HRT patches after a misunderstanding with my GP. Who I didn’t actually speak to but who challenged my taking of HRT as I was doing it wrongly: it was all daily, but I thought I was told to do the gel daily and the tablets every other day. The prescription amounts reinforced that as there were fewer tablets.

Can I reiterate that I have MS and the menopause has ramped up my cognition issues and I thought the GP told me to take the gel/tablet in a certain way? Well this other GP said I was increasing my likelihood of endocrinal cancer? And she did it in a thirteen-line text? Caring NHS? Less so than ever!

But I have largely escaped headaches in my life and a couple of paracetamol usually gets it gone. But is it the patches? Am I going to have to go cold turkey and give HRT the push?

I certainly don’t want to enter the cycle of trying to get an Econsult or playing phone tag with an actual GP appointment again, my health is too fragile. I don’t like the current climate as it is but criticising the GP could mean I am struck off.

Cast adrift without a GP would be my worst nightmare, it would compound my stresses to an undesirable level. I have defended the practice to others in the past but all surgeries are facing arguments all the time because they are underfunded. I thought my vote would help the funding crisis but they are going after me in alternative ways.

I’m too young to retire but I’m too grey to get any of the jobs I’m applying for. Invigilation would be good if it happened every week like my old job, but it’s on its own timetable set by the exam board each school follows.

So back to my book? Absolutely!