I’m not sure whether I’ll be tempted outside in November (much). We have discussed our hiatus which is due to many things. Halfterm saw us caravanning in Norfolk for the briefest of weekends and I have been trying to get myself back into work, but I’m not gonna lie it’s not good out there.

I’m going to practice interview techniques with a friend but the basic problem I have is not being able to answer the questions being asked. Each interview has a different variation of the same set of questions which I am not as good at answering as hoc.

Preparation now seems to involve memorising lots of names and things about the company you’ve applied to having looked it all up online in advance. My brain doesn’t work like that now and my thought processes are different, and I’m not sure whether that’s an MS thing affecting my cognition or something pointing at a level of neurodiversity that I need to investigate but haven’t.

It’s been cold and wet and I drove myself to Hertford for an interview for a job I didn’t get. That was a scary drive if I’m honest and would have been a difficult way to start a job. It was on the trainline though so commuting by train was possible. But having failed the interview, or the test, it is forgotten and I’m still looking. I honestly don’t know whether I am looking at the wrong things, being too ambitious or hitting an age-related ceiling. I want to enjoy my life but working largely involves anxiety and stress which affect my health… ideas on a text please?